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Hi there!!!! Let me begin with extending a huge welcome! I’m so excited that you’re here! For those of you who are new here this current blog a spin off from my old blog called One Glass Slipper. I’ve transferred aaaaalmost all of the old content so don’t worry, you haven’t missed much of anything. About a year into blogging I decided to quit and take a break from writing…..

So why’d I end OGS???

Back in college I was dating a guy who broke up with me using the all too infamous “it’s not you it’s me” line. I mean, really, who wants to hear that. So. Lame.

But after closing down One Glass Slipper I found myself thinking of that same line over and over again. On the outside there may not have been anything visibly wrong with it. I’m not sure the little things that drove me nutso about it are things others wouldn’t have been bothered by (like the fact that when you typed in the web address oneglassslipper you have to write a curse word (a$$) in the URL……AND I had to always double and triple check to make sure there were 3 S’s…..silly, I know, but it drove me crazy).

meg marie wallace pink sweater, Free People DressDeep down, though, something more grated on me. And over time I just didn’t want to keep going as I was. I had created a brand I didn’t love.

In the beginning, super early on when I first decided to start blogging, I wanted to give voice to some of the thoughts in my head and create a space where I could just write. As a family we had just come out of a super tough season and I think, looking back, I was sort of a bit depressed. As I read back through some posts I see the sadness and brokenness coming through.

But that depression also affected other areas of blogging too. When I would write I would edit and re-edit and edit four times more…I second guessed almost everything I did, from the smallest decision to the biggest decisions. I continually worried about what people thought and tried to please everyone and everybody. If someone wanted me to write about something, then I would find a way to write about it. If someone didn’t like something, then I’d do away with it.

I’d never blogged before and all of my writings prior to starting blogging had only been for private use in my own journals. However when I began to write publicly I spent ridiculous amounts of time asking for people’s advice. I wanted to know what others thought, but often took their advice so literal and so far that I began to lose sight of my goals. Great people offered their opinions. Lovely people. Some of my favorite people on the planet gave some really great advice. But at the end of the day when all of those people gave different and conflicting advice I was at a loss for what to do. How could I please everyone when no one agreed?

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My chosen “theme” didn’t help either. I had attempted to create a brand to speak to the imperfection that we all have but try so hard to hide…but I did that in a way that began to feel more forced. In the beginning it made sense to use my old wedding dress and make it look like a Cinderella dress in a creative way, but after awhile I felt more trapped in that “theme” than free to continue writing about all of the various topics I would wish to cover long term.

Mix into there the fact that I also started homeschooling our little flock of munchkins and, well….I was a hot mess trying to hold it all together or find any desire to keep going.

Here’s the thing, at the end of my life I don’t want to be known as a wannabe Disney princess, or a pastor’s wife, or a mom of five kids or a hair fanatic or a fitness guru. When it’s all said and done and I breathe in my last breath I want to be known as a woman who loves Jesus. I want to follow Him, hear Him, run to Him, see Him, enjoy Him, relate with Him, speak of Him and ultimately I want to know Him face to face. And I want to use all I have and everything I am to point others in His direction too.

But what about the rest of me? Is there room to talk about other things in life that don’t carry as much weight?meg marie wallace pink sweater, Free People Dress

Somehow I started believing that if everything I wrote wasn’t all about those deepest parts of life then it was completely meaningless and a waste of my time. Where did that come from? Why would I think that way?

Who told me this lie?

Well, it’s not you. It’s me.

I know, I know. I’m so lame for saying that.

But it’s true.

Truth is I often care far too much about what other people think. It’s like a disease really. And I want to crush it, like cancer, and be cured, but clearly I’m not there yet. Through these past few years and especially these past few months I have really been learning to ask, “Who Am I?” (Did you ever see the movie Runaway Bride with Julia Roberts???)

NOT “who do others want me to be” or “who do others say that I am”…..I’m asking me what it is that makes me….well, me. How am I wired? What do I love? What am I good at? What lights me up? What am I passionate about?meg marie wallace pink sweater, Free People Dress

When I close my eyes tight and drown out all of the noise…here’s what I’ve got so far…I’m a normal girl, that loves to make things beautiful. Anything from pain and sorrow to braids and bows I want to find a way to make it lovely. I love all things girly. I love pink and soft grey, off white and rose gold. I love dressing up, and dressing my family up…but I love my sweat pants and our jammies too. I love eating healthy, fitness and working out and I’m learning every day to keep my motives in check as I pursue those goals. I love finding ways to simplify life and love connecting with others. I love soft rain on the windows, writing hand written letters, short fingernails, and small dainty jewelry. I love making things with wood, painting and creating with my hands. I love clothes and fashion, new styles and watching runway shows and reality TV. I love make up and hair products and I never ever ever leave overnight without my hair drier, because I have some wicked frizzy hair if I don’t. I love my family and my husband so much that sometimes I think my heart will beat out of my chest. I love living in CA and love the ocean….and yes, I love Jesus more than all of that combined.

But that last line doesn’t mean there isn’t a place for all of the things I find lovely prior to that last statement. In fact, the more I ask those questions of myself the more I am realizing that it is Him who is beckoning me to do so.

Life does get serious at times. There is a lot that goes wrong and there’s stuff that gets messy. People are sometimes hard to love….heck, I’m hard to love at times too. And there are more days than I’d like to admit when I am in tears because life is “just not working” and I have to start all over again. But I truly believe, through all of the sorrow, heartaches, troubles and worries…through the mundane, the every day and the routine…that we are meant to live life beautifully. When the Bible talks about Jesus coming to this earth, living perfectly and dying in our place for our sins He says He did so to give us life and life to the fullest!!! He gave us ALL things to enjoy…for our joy, the good of others, and to His glory!meg marie wallace pink sweater, Free People Dress

All of that to say I’m feeling more free than ever! Free to live! Free to enjoy how I’m wired. Free to stop comparing myself to others, and free to stop overthinking it all for cryin’ out loud! I’m free to dream, free to love, free to create, and free to be just plain ‘ole me. And guess what…so are you!!!!

xo MM Meg Marie initials

(And for all you men out there, stop using that lame break up line!)

 

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**Edited 1/10/2017: 

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39 comments

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Love the new blog! So pretty!! Can’t wait to read all the new stuff! <3
Plus, you know GLITTER!!!! hahaha

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I’m so glad you are back to writing! You are such an inspiration! Thanks for sharing 🙂

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Really glad to have you and the blog back! I am already loving it and loving the “free to be me” concept. I’ve been really speaking/asking for that lately. Remembering God created me…the good and the bad, let me be me! Can’t wait for more !

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I look forward to reading your new blog, and it’s inspiring to watch it evolve and grow….Happy writing!!!

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I am new to your blog and excited to read more!

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Yay! This is a great read on your new blog! Congratulations!

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Hi! I’m new to your blog and I wanted to say that I love your writing! Your blog layout and design is gorgeous. I’m looking forward to reading more!

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Such a beautiful blog. Looking forward to more!

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Just a side note- I forgot to mention that the time and effort you took off to work on this blog is obvious. It’s gorgeous!

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I was bummed when you said the other blog was ending, but after this post I can’t wait to see what this one brings! Such wonderful words and truth❤️

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So glad you’re back! I’ve missed reading your posts. ? Love the new blog. Xoxo

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Welcome back, looking forward to following along on your new blog.

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Congratulations friend! I’m truly happy for you and love seeing pictures of your sweet family!!! Enjoy the ride.

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I love this! I loved your old blog as well but I can under where you are coming from. Somewhere along the way I feel like I lost my true self, only its not in a blog, it’s in life. I want to restart, but that’s not possible 🙂 so I think I just need to pause, take a good look at myself, talk to my God and find out who I am and who He created me to be ❤

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I’m a real human! ❤❤❤??

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Excited for your new blog. You write so well and I love your transparency. And of course your photos are always incredible! Way to shine girl!

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I read your old blog for the first time right as you ended it! Imagine my excitement when I see you started a new one! I’m a real person and I’m really looking forward to following you!

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Beautifully written, Meg! I feel like you’re writing EXACTLY what I’ve been feeling with my blog. I’m so excited to follow your new journey and pray that God blesses you to the fullest! PS…We still have to get together one of these times, maybe when we come to Disneyland. 🙂

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Hello! I’m Stefani, I just started following you on Instagram when you began posting about your new blog!! Congrats on the relaunch!! Love your Instagram feed!

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I am new to your blog but I absolutely love what I have read so far!❤

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Beautiful new site, Meg! I, like so many, am so encouraged by your writing. I’m so glad you listened to your heart and can’t wait to see where He leads!

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Yasssss! Love it! So excited to be able to read your writing again and keep up with all you’re doing again!! ❤️

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Yay, launch day is finally here!!

So excited to join along on your new adventure!

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hey meg. you’re awesome. you can totally do this homeschooling thing! I have faith in you!

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some days I wonder if I’ll make it through the day!! But I do feel like there is so much more hope with this coming semester! Thanks for the encouragement!

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I can totally relate to you!! As ministry wife, I too enjoy run way shows, make up, fitness, and everything “girly”! I am so tired of feeling guilty for liking such things, but I think it is okay! I am glad I am not the only ministry-wife who enjoys that type of stuff. As you said, “Free to enjoy how we’re wired!” I have been following you on insta for a while now, and I was so excited to see you’ve got a new blog up! I’ve subscribed and can’t wait to read more. 🙂 You are an inspiration!

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It sounds like we would be BFF”s in a hurry! Oh and here’s another confession….I totally watch the Bachelor. There I said it. lol! But seriously though, your comment just made my day! That’s so encouraging to hear that me voicing some of that meant something to you too. Thanks so much for sharing!

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So glad you are back Meg, I’ve missed you!
🙂 Stacy

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Thanks so much Stacy!!!

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Thanks for sharing your heart Meg! So glad you’re back to blogging, I always gain so much from your insights. Speaking of which, I definitely relate to the getting caught up in trying to please everyone and worrying about what they think. It is hard to break free from that, but I’m so thankful for you sharing your journey!

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And I’m so thankful that we didn’t just have to get together and share life virtually! Thanks for spending your evening with me talking “real”. Love you!

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So excited to see you’re back! Love the look of the blog,. It’s so cute! I truly understand the searching and finding yourself, as I’ve been through the same over the last year. I can’t wait to see what God is going to do through you in the coming year.

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I was SO excited when I got the email today announcing that your new blog is up! I can’t wait to read all that you have to write Meg! You are a true inspiration and I’m so glad to follow your journey. May God always bless you like he blesses us through your message!?

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awwww….thank you so very much Chrissy! That’s so sweet and thank you so much for that prayer!

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So excited for this new blog!!! Excited to see the way the Lord brings freedom to you through this. He is the only One you aim to please…and when we fail to hit the mark…He STILL loves us!!! The blog is gorgeous…you are gorgeous & I can’t wait to follow along!

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Thank you so much Alecia!!! Thank you for that sweet reminder and for being excited!

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The new blog looks amazing! I love the bravery of saying “let’s start over”. Looking forward to reading more!

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I love you for who you are!! This new blog is going to be great, friend. (But these photos are really beautiful and your hair is gorgeous!!!!!)

I’m a real person and already subscribed I think! 😉

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lol! I know you’re real!!! And I miss your real face right this real minute right here in my real living room!

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